loving someone like YOU…
I am tormented by the fact that I am having this deep admiration..i don’t want to entertain it for so many reasons…my promise and your current situation…a promise that binds me with my current status..i guess keeping a promise is the most difficult thing to do..but i must admit..I do not have regrets in staying single until I graduate in this undergrad school..guess the reason why I made that promise is because I was granted by my parents to have the freedom of having a relationship with the other individual(a guy of course)..in fact I am enjoying myself right now…it is not yet the time I think..afterall you have your own life to walk through..you are happy as far as i know…and i want you to stay that way..one more promise is that i won’t dare to come near you…I am not the kind of person that has the capacity to ruin a relationship..that is for sure…looking you from afar makes me wonder and sometimes it confuses me..will i stick to my promise or what???…Guess what??…I will stick to it..afterall it is a promise to be kept..not for anyone but for myself…it is hard to ignore you i know but it is quite alright cause you do not even care the hell out of me…you do not even know it was you all along…so why bother anyway…I am safe as well as my little secret I guess…hoping…praying…God help me…am I pathetic for admiring you??…hope not…who ever YOU are..i will say your name when the right time comes..not here but in person…
